We almost burst into laughter when a colleague mentioned something which stirred up memories of our little private joke. I’m certain that we would be roaring with laughter if we were to look at each other at that particular moment. It’s a good thing that he was seated at the front seat of the car; me right behind him.

Gee. But I could see from the side mirror that he was holding back his laughter. Me too. It doesn’t help that we were constantly exchanging messages on the phone; laughing in silence. I like this feeling; laughing over things that no one knows, except us. :)

Great to have him beside me during the company’s Chinese New Year lunch too. And most importantly, to have him seated on my right. Yays. :)

That yucky feeling is back again. The only difference is that it’s much yuckier this time. Well, some two years ago, when I was into the second or third month of my current job, I grew so sick of work that it makes me very much frustrated.

Thus, I applied for graduate studies on the very last day of the application date. It served me well, kept me entertained for two good years. School was not entirely fun, but at least I had lessons to attend and projects to keep me occupied.

Now? It’s back to square. Being too free makes me think a lot about life. Something that I never like to think about because I don’t have the courage to make things happen. And seeing how lousy I am makes me feel really terrible.

Argh. It’s kind of sad that bumping into him in the morning and back home didn’t chase away the yucky feeling. I don’t know why. I don’t even feel like talking. I guess I’m feeling really lousy that nothing can help.

I wish I could fly to somewhere happier. :(