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Random Thoughts
Thoughts | 9:45 pm
Bumped into an old friend, boarded the same train, were in the same cabin but never did we acknowledge the fact that we know each other. Hah. He was one of my tuition mates, back in 2000. Not sure if he still remembers how much he and another guy love to throw paper aeroplane towards my desk along with some silly but nice messages which I eventually crushed and threw back at them. *laughs* Those were the days. But what are left are merely sweet memories of the good old days. Now, we’re nothing more to each other, other than just another random stranger.
It makes me wonder what brings two people together; two people who had never met before. How the friendship blossoms and eventually withers over time. And how a stranger eventually returns back to his original status, that is, a stranger. Made a pact with a friend, to meet up on the first Saturday of every month along with some other friends, starting next month. I’m hoping that we would continue to do so for many many years. Once a month, twelve times a year is not a lot, really.
Wasn’t able to sleep well for the past few nights, been thinking quite a lot lately. What if, what if? What if I get into the Finals, what if I don’t? Thanks for the encouraging words on my previous entry. It helps a lot in calming me down. Had a rather interesting conversation with a friend offline, early this week. He mentioned that he believe I can make it and I must believe in myself to make things happen. I responded with:
“I believe, but…
I got cut off almost immediately.
“There is no buts if you chose to believe.” was his reply.
It kept me thinking for the rest of the day on how inappropriate it is to associate believe with but. What makes it more meaningful was to hear from a friend who only jokes with you most of the time. Hah!
Three more days to the release of results. Continue to pray hard for me. :)
Edit: Guess what? I had the same dream again last night. Argh.
9 Responses to “Random Thoughts”
Your friend sounds really smart, no buts if you rreally believe. Buts are for hope. I think we confuse hope with belief too often. About friendship and how it happens, cause you made me think here too, it’s odd really what kind of people who end up having those good relationships that last through life. If I think about my closest friends, the ones that I have stuck with and who have stuck with me, it’s not someone I would have guessed I would love to be with. We’re so different, but somehow so alike at the same time. It’s a strange thing, friendship, really :)
April 22, 2006 | 9:54 am
Personally, I think true friendships never die, that the friends for life concept is really possible. Dying friendships, given that one tried to sustain that friendship, are a possible sign that there never really was a real friendship worth keeping in the first place. I don’t know; that’s how I see it with my friends. They stay, if they’re friends, if not, they’re just another acquaintance. Then again, my friendships have the weirdest beginnings.
Your friend’s remark was touching, but for me, things are never so simple. Perhaps it is better to be a simpleton afteral.
April 22, 2006 | 8:03 pm
I agree with Jen :)
This is a small city, so I meet people I used to know all the time. Sometimes we don’t say anything to eachother either and I kind of wonder if they still remember me o.O;;
April 22, 2006 | 11:58 pm
I once wondered about that question: what brings two people together; two people who had never met before. True, sometimes they turns back into another person, like one of my “past” friend did, we don’t even say hi to each other in the halls anymore… You have a really great friend there who encourages you and cheers you up ^^ Good luck with the results! I’m sure you got into too :]
April 23, 2006 | 3:57 am
Funny how lots of friendships end that way. I know quite a lot of past best friends that are now strangers to me. It’s funny how it happens over summer vacation during school, too. Oh well, the friendship must of not meant to last then.
Good luck always…..
April 23, 2006 | 2:45 pm
It’s always the funny friends that you have to watch out for with the simple, but meaningful observations and commentary on life.
I think friendships are formed through common experience. It’s not really enough to meet someone and strike up a conversation with them, but you have to have shared an activity or event with them. Growing apart is something that I do not enjoy though…
I have the worst time sleeping before finals, not so much the dreams, but just the stress. I recommend some calming music or just working out your frustrations until you’re tired.
April 26, 2006 | 8:54 am
Tell me about it…sometimes, I try to think back to how I made a friend. And, once, I even asked how I met someone and how it was that we started talking about becoming friends. It such a quick process to me that I just forgot how exactly I became so close to certain people. And then, just as quickly, people can leave you, which is a real bummer.
Anyway, I hope you get into the finals =D And your friend is right…no buts!
April 27, 2006 | 10:00 am
You just ignored each other? Lol, but I understand why. I tend to ignore people I know a lot, even if I will see them the next day.
April 28, 2006 | 12:01 am
Sometimes I tend to ignore people whom I haven’t seen or talked to for a long long time too. It’s not that I deliberately want to do that..I’m just afraid that the person would not be able to recognise me. Then that would really be awkward. I hope that you and your friends will be able to keep up with meeting up once a month. You’re right about once a month for a year being not alot, so there should be no problems.
Your friend sounds wise. I’ll keep what he said in mind just in case I need it next time. ;D
April 22, 2006 | 5:00 am