Appreciation; that form of energy that keeps all the volunteers going. It doesn’t cost a cent, yet last for a lifetime. You know that they need you; they just wouldn’t let go of your hands. You know that they love you; the hugs and kisses. You know that your presence makes a lot of difference; the smiles and laughter. You know that you’re there for a reason. And that reason? Love.

The little girl whom I took care of during the Kids Camp last December told me that she remembers me. The 92 year old lady whom I took care of yesterday gave me a hug and a kiss upon alighting from the bus. I thought it was a little silly of me to agree on escorting the residents from the home to and fro since I never really like bus journeys. I’m glad I took up the job. That 92 year old lady whom I sat with told me about her husband (who passed away 30 years ago), how they met and how much he loved her. Something that my mum and dad would never tell me. She said that she had nothing for me, other than keeping me in her prayers. That’s far too much of a gift and is more than enough, I thought.

It was definitely a great day interacting with the volunteers, kids, elderly and the intellectually disabled. What makes it more heartwarming is to see that some of the little kids actually helped to serve the food to the elderly who have difficulty walking. Sure, the kids might not be as smart when compared to some other really brilliant kids from the top schools. But they have a heart of gold. I’m starting to love these little terrors much more. Can’t wait for the next season of Reading Stars to begin. Two more weeks, on the 26th of January to be exact! Wheee!

I lost a friend last weekend. I’ve learnt not to be too persistent in a relationship or friendship; when it’s time to let go, thank God that there’s some beautiful memories to count on, and just let go. It’s hard to cling on to things that aren’t yours to begin with. Then again, we own nothing.

The girl who accompanied me throughout my Secondary School days, ensuring that I always have someone to work with when doing project works, actually abandoned me on her 20th birthday 2 months back. It was only when I met up with the usual gang in celebration of another friend’s 21st Birthday that I realised that they went out on her Birthday. I was just so so so lost when I was questioned why I chose not to attend the girl’s birthday. I wasn’t even informed or invited, how am I supposed to accept the invitation?

Honestly, I was on the verge of crying. I had never felt that lost before. Should I just made known to the rest that the girl and I aren’t that close anymore? Or should I feign ignorance? I chose the former; I’m a bad liar. I felt really terrible for the rest of the night. I chose to take the long route back home. I knew I would cry myself to sleep that night, and I did.

Thing is, she’s not the first friend I’ve lost anyway. Friends dumped me for their boyfriends and honestly, I don’t mind. Since, I can’t possibly be the one spending the rest of their life with. *shrugs* Life goes on. Goodbye friend, don’t blame me if I chose not to attend the monthly gatherings. I had tortured myself enough; it hurts to see how the gap between us widens months after months.

Ahhh, I always believe that a guy makes a much wonderful friend than a girl. At least, none of my guy friends dumped me for their girlfriends! None that I could remember of. :)

That aside, school had started. Got to work harder this semester! :)

Site Related: I always wanted to use my real name instead of an online alias since a year back; I don’t want to go on hiding anymore for I’ve got nothing to hide. It would be nice if you could relink me with my real name. Lain was a really sad character if you had watched the anime. I want the past to haunt me no more. Hello Huimei. Goodbye Lain.