Three weeks of holidays and it felt like months. I haven’t been doing anything constructive, apart from clearing away my notes, just so that I don’t have to see them anymore. Other than that, it’s more of sleeping and watching animes; Howl’s Moving Castle, Spirited Away, Totoro, Yobi The Five Tailed Fox, Doreamon The Movie, etc. I’m quite tempted to watch some of the anime series too, but I know I’ll never ever be that discipline enough to sit still and watch right from the first episode to the last. I mean there are hundreds over episodes. *faints*

Thanks Haley on the recommendation of some really great sites to watch the animes, else I would have been really really bored at home! :)

On another note, my dad turned 58 two days ago. Honestly, I don’t want him to get old so fast. It just seems so so so scary. It’s like I’m a day closer to the day that I might just lose him. Very very scary. I can’t help to think about that since male has lower life expectancy than females. *shudders* Anyway, I went for a job interview on his birthday too. I’m not sure if I would get the job, not even sure if I would want to work. But seriously, time passes really slow back at home. *shrugs*

Results were released at 11 am this morning. And wheeee, I got what I wished for yet again. And in fact a little better. :)

Discrete Structures: B+
Mathematics I: B+
Computational Methods for Basic Finance: B
Changing Landscape of Singapore: S (Satisfactory)
Database Management System: A-

An increase of 0.1 for my overall CAP (Cumulative Average Point). Now, I’m a little closer to securing a Second Upper Degree. I’m kind of happy for some of my friends who managed to get an A! Really fantastic! I hope that one day I can get an A too. *nods* Congrats to those who managed to score well. And for those who didn’t, don’t dwell on it. Things will get better if you don’t give up! I’m still praying hard for some of my really good friends who will be getting their results at 7 pm. I hope they’ll score great! :)

Dad’s 58th birthday today. Job interview tomorrow. Results out on Saturday.

Updates? Soon. :)

Where had that anti-social little girl gone to? The girl who is constantly shutting herself from the rest of the world. The girl who is always living in the little world of her own. The girl who never like to speak a word.

I remembered that during the first few weeks of school, I was the still same old me; sitting all by myself during lectures, tutorials and labs. I believe that if no one had bothered to notice my existence, things might not have changed a bit; I might still be alone for the next few semesters.

To the group of guys who kept be company for both the semesters, this is for you:
(Left-to-right clockwise: Christopher, Jesslin, Me, Jeffrey, Kian Wei, Ali, Eugene) :P

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>> Thank Yous (Read on..)

That little girl had grown up, thanks to the people around her who showered her with endless love. The next time you see someone all by himself/ herself, go up to him/ her. You never know how his/ her life would be changed due to that little action you had taken. I hope that someday I will have the courage to do the same.

I’m grateful for what I have now. And for the things I don’t have, I believe that God has a great reason for taking them away. After all, how bad can life be when you have the company of some really great friends!

I’m simply amazed at how some people could act as though nothing had ever happened, as though nothing was ever mentioned. Impossible, I thought. How could anyone behave that way? That golden opportunity was made known to me some five months ago, then comes late March this year, I received quite a number of missed calls on a certain evening. I knew that I was dead for sure.

Remember the competition I took part in early July last year? I was told that I might have to represent Singapore for the International round, since the Army wouldn’t let the Gold Medalist defer his National Service despite countless appeals. Honestly, I didn’t really want to go, but I know I have to, because my conscience tells me so. It’s much of obligation I guess.

I mean, the school spent sure a fair bit of money to groom me to who I am today. It’s just not me to turn down that offer. And believe me, I’m not at all tempted with the opportunities attached, even though the host country this year would be Japan! Japan, a dream tour destination for most, but is never mine, at least not now.

I finally made a call to the overall in-charge this morning, not because I can’t wait to know the latest status but because another opportunity was knocking on the door, and have been waiting for my reply for more than a month! I got the reply I wish to hear, but never did I expect it to be said so bluntly.

I just couldn’t believe how people could be so realistic. I mean, being treated like gem when you are of use and likewise, being treated like dirt when you are no longer of any use. I wouldn’t say that getting me as a reserve is making use of me, since I’m benefiting from it as well, with the experiences and stuffs. But certainly, I never expect to be treated like dirt, like it’s nobody’s business when the Army finally decides to release the guy.

At least I expected a sorry, for the unnecessary emotional trauma I had for a week. The tears I shed, how I was unable to concentrate on my studies for the entire week, because I can’t bear to leave.

I’m not at all sore about not being able to represent Singapore for the competition held internationally, rather I am disgusted by how this matter was handled. The opportunity was never mine to begin with, and thus I never lost a single thing. And now that I don’t have to apply a semester of leave from school, I couldn’t be any happier. I mean, what can be compared to taking the same modules and working on projects with the nicest bunch of friends? None, absolutely nothing!

I’ll still send the guy off when he leaves the country for the competition, together with my teammates. But no longer will I place such a high respect on that overall in-charge. Whee. Who cares? As long as I’m back being just another random nobody, I’ll be happy. Life’s great being a nobody. :)

And so as this matter finally come to a close, I’m able to give a reply to the Chairperson of the Club I’m in. I felt really bad that she had to wait for my reply for more than a month! Gahh, and she chose not to give up on me despite the long wait. Honestly, I’m flattered. I’ll definitely do a great job! It would be fun planning for the weekly activities, outings and camps with the other committee members. Whee. I can’t wait! :)

Just two more days, and all would be over. I will be sitting for my last paper on the morning of 4th May. I can’t help but to wonder when would be the next time I would be stepping into the Multi Purpose Hall thereafter, for my next paper.

A semester from now? Or two semesters from now?

I had drawn something for the gang whom I’m always seen hanging around with in school. Ahh yes, I always feel like drawing something when I’m supposed to be studying. I’ll post it up when I’ve actually given them! I can’t decide if it’s meant to be a thank-you or goodbye gift.

Time will tell. I wish, I hope, I pray that the intended caller would call soon. You just know how I lack the courage to call.

Either way, wish me luck for my last paper. This might be the last University paper I would be sitting for, for the year of 2007. It might not be. I don’t know.