I am starting to feel positive about life again, after catching up with the nicest people this weekend. I think, this must be the best weekend I ever had since I started working. No doubt about that.

Had a great dinner with the usual gang on Friday; my belated birthday treat. Had a chat with him while waiting for the rest since we were the first the arrive. Somehow, I’m glad he didn’t choose to stay in his office till it’s about time; like what he always does. I’m secretly hoping that he chose to arrive early because of me.

*shrugs*

He was very nice that evening; very gentlemanly and all. He just makes sure that he’s the last to enter and leave that restaurant. In the past, he’ll just leave me on my own, walking behind. But that evening? No. And I had a bad feeling about that though I am again secretly hoping that he did that because of me.

*shrugs*

I hope it’s not anything bad, really. Anyway, it’s great that the group of us finally had some traveling plans! Can’t wait to go off to some place for a little rest. :)

I guess the highlight for that night was that I finally managed to pass the thank you gift to the rightful owner. Believe me, I was thinking about that for the whole evening! I even hesitated and told myself not to pass them to him. I don’t know why I still chose to shove them at the back seat when I was about to get off from his car.

*shrugs*

I haven’t heard anything from him since then. Yup. Somehow, I think the thank-you gifts doesn’t really matter much to him. But at least I managed to express my thanks through words; something that I wouldn’t say because I would get really teary. I just hope that he wouldn’t throw them away.

Thanks for the ride back. :)

Then come Saturday; the day I played my first sparkler! I always have this fear about sparkler since my childhood days thanks to my elder sister who would chase me with sparklers whenever she get the chance to. Now I feel so stupid for being afraid of the harmless sparklers! Hah.

Mid autumn gathering was fun; nice food, fun games, beautiful lanterns, great company. You know, I haven’t had such a great laugh for a long long while but I had them all last night. And I think that would keep me going for quite some time. :)

That aside, I was quite surprised when Quek wished me Happy Birthday! Totally didn’t expect that! It just makes me happy that somehow there are people who remembers me! :)

Thanks Jeremy for the ride back, and Jian Sheng for directing him. I’m just plain useless when it comes to road directions; totally helpless.

Yup. And today? No special plans. I think I just need some rest. :)

Appreciate the gatherings, really. :)

Sometimes in life, we got so lost that we question our existence. I experience that sometimes, perhaps most of the times. I just shrugged off that thought and move on.

Volunteer X: You can move forward, there’s an empty space in front.
Min Xuan: I don’t want. I want to sit with that jie jie (big sister).

And she points at me, smiling gleefully. Honestly, I haven’t felt that wanted or important for a long long while. She’s a little kid, with a really big heart.

I guess that as we age, we have more things to complain about and often neglects the beautiful part of life. We get really generous with brainless criticisms but stint on compliments. I’m equally guilty for that too.

I haven’t told anyone how important they were to me for a long long while. In fact, I don’t remember that I had ever told anyone how much they meant to me. I never did, and I never have that courage to.

I know that sometimes action speaks louder than words. But at times, it’s a lot more better to speak up. Gahhh. Huimei’s such a scardy cat.

Anyway, what that little girl said is enough to make me smile for the rest of the week. It’s really amazing what big things little kids can do.