I like the clear blue sky tonight, along with the twinkling stars. Not much, but just enough to cheer me up a little. :)

The first time I saw the sky flooded with blinking stars was some seven years ago, at a campsite. I remembered that it was Kim’s and Doreen’s idea to lay the sleeping bags outside of our canvas tent; just to gaze at the stars.

I never felt that it was a great idea, but now I do.

Honestly, I miss the good old camping days. The making of identifiers, tent pitching, gadgets making, outdoor cooking, six sinful meals a day, singing of songs, and even the group cheers which I used to dislike a lot.

That camp, seven years ago, was the best camp I ever had; I learnt a lot. I hope my teammates are doing fine now.

Hmm, I think I’m starting to like staying back late in the office, just so that I could catch a glimpse of the beautiful night view. :)

.. if mum stops screaming at dad over the slightest things. It annoys me a lot, and dad too. But he’s keeping mum, he just doesn’t want to make a big fuss or worsen the situation.

Dad just grumbles to me when mum’s not around. And when mum’s around and he was being screamed at, we just look at each other and shook our heads.

Sigh.

For the past few weekends, I have been woken up by my mum’s screaming. Honestly, it’s driving me crazy. I’m very much deprived of proper rest.

I was at work last afternoon, deploying a project which I had completed quite some time ago. And.. he came to my mind.

I didn’t have to do such stuffs back in those days; it was always his job. Mine’s more on documentation since he’s always better at the commands.

Now, I can only rely on myself. Yup, just me this time round. I’m glad that I managed to do it fast enough (though I still wish I will never have to do it).

Took the train back home with a friend this evening; the guy whom I met on the first day of work. Well, it seems that he’s the only person in the company who I can pour all my work-related unhappiness to.

Honestly, I’m having second thoughts. I’m in a position that many would envy, but it’s not the life I’m seeking; not for now. It’s not making me happy at all. And I felt as though I’m wasting my life away.

Yes, it’s that bad.

Now, tell me what’s the point on staying when it doesn’t make you happy.

Well, shall wait till the release of my master application result.

It’s the second week of work tomorrow. And honestly, I’m still not used to waking up early in the morning and getting back home only in the evening. I don’t think I’ll get used to it anytime soon. I still miss school a lot; the flexibility of time, breaks and most importantly, the people whom I love.

The first three days of work were quite a torture. Reading is one of the things I dislike most, but sadly I was tasked to read on some stuffs which I had already knew as a form of refresher. I can’t believe I survived those three days. Moreover, I was alone most of the time; there’s no one seated around me.

And just when I thought that things would go on that way, things started to pick up a little after getting a call from my favourite friend on Thursday afternoon! He must be my lucky star! One of my colleagues asked me to join them for the afternoon break and I got to know them a little better.

Then, on Friday, I was given a project to work on. I know it’s going to be a little different. In fact, it’s very different. I’m no longer working on a project with my favourite friend.

I know I have to compromise a little at times. I know I have to express my ideas clearly. I know I have to say what I wish to say and disagree on things with I don’t approve on. And I know I shouldn’t cry anymore.

You wouldn’t be there to give in to me. You wouldn’t be there to remind me of things I have to be aware of when working with people. You wouldn’t be there anymore.

Second week of work, without you, but with all the advices you had given me. It’s going to be tough, I know.