I haven’t cried since the day I had my LASIK surgery done. Well, that’s more than four months! Considering that I used to cry a lot, that’s certainly a record. But.. I broke that record today.
I just can take it no more.
It’s bothering me far too much.
You know, it scares me whenever I’m with a big group of friends, in a really noisy place. I get really stressed easily.
The reason?
I can’t hear more than half of the things anyone says, even if you are just next to me.
And, it bothers me a lot. Because I wouldn’t know what to reply.
During the Company’s Lunar New Year brunch last week, I was trying hard to avoid eye contact with anyone at my table because I don’t want to start any conversation. Well, I succeeded. But, I felt really bad and sad.
Today, I met up with yet another big group of friends for steamboat dinner. The place was a million times noisier than last Friday’s. Okay, I exaggerated, but it was that bad. I have a really hard time trying to listen.
KM was being really nice by talking to me for the whole evening. I know he doesn’t want me to feel that I’m being left out. I totally appreciate that! But he ended up having to repeat himself a lot of times. And the worst part was that, I still couldn’t catch his words!
I either nod and smile, or gave him a blur look. I don’t like to make people repeat their words for far too many times. But nodding and smiling, without comprehending what the other person was saying is equally bad.
You know, I feel that I’ve lost quite a number of friends because of the nodding and smiling attitude when they talk to me. It’s really rude! And it makes the latter feel that I’m uninterested or totally can’t be bothered to talk to him/ her.
*sigh*
Sometimes, I wish I could wear a sign that says: I’m hearing impaired.
I wish to scream badly.
I’m hoping that I’ll feel much better after a night of rest.
Good night, people.
I’m glad that I chose not to disappoint my little cousin. I know that she’s expecting me to go over to her house, and so I did. I could have and was tempted to ignore the hint she dropped last evening.
But I’m glad I didn’t.
Finally, I have the audio problem of her PC fixed. She have been waiting for this day! No more reading of subtitles for her. :)
Now, it’s back to studying, after not touching the books for almost three days!